Clarity

I did not do a recap last year. Maybe because I didn't have anything to be proud of.

Every year I do things I end up regretting 

Every year I say things I end up hurting

Every year I am the same person I was before.

I graduated from Law School.

I got myself a job at a lovely firm.

I met people I'd like to keep with me till the end. 

I met people I wished I didn't have to.

I lost a few of them along the way.

I sang a few songs. 

I cried a few tears. 

I moved out from home for the first time. It was the toughest thing I had to do. Leaving my room. Leaving my parents. Never thought the day would come where I had to leave everything behind. I guess I have been my parents' baby for way too long. It was time to step out with my own two feet. 

I tried running. I fell. I stood up. I fell again. So I'm still trying to get back up. 

I prayed for an understanding boss, I got more than I bargained for. 

I prayed for an easy life. I need more time.

I prayed for less tears. I got drunk.

I prayed for more smiles. I saw my parents.

I prayed for strength. I got him to catch me every time I fall.

I can only go so far to apologize for the things I did, for the things I said. No second in time will erase what I did. But I'm hoping it is enough to heal. 

I need more than just a second chance. I need faith. 

This year, I will be better. I promise.

On NYE, I went shopping with my parents. Just like when I was 12. It was the happiest moment for me in 2012. What was yours? :)

With love,

Lynette T.