Fall from grace

You saw her, you told them you dreamt her to life. Reasons started pouring in. Her eyes are mesmerizing. Her smile washes all your worries away. The way she flings her hair captivates you. Reasons which seemed never ending. 


My writing will deceive you in many ways. 


I'm not an angry person. I'm just often disappointed in life because I want so much more. Overwhelming expectations only to let myself down from time to time. My 'wants' are often difficult to achieve.


I'm not an emotional person. I just like expressing myself more than you do. 


I'm not as knowledgeable as I may portray myself to be. Unfortunately, I don't read to learn. I rely solely on experience. Which. Is bad.


No, my English is not flawless. I don't know what a noun is. Heck, I don't even know what a verb is! But I listen to music, I watch movies and that's how I learn. I couldn't spell scissors until only a few years back. I couldn't spell colleagues until I started using it during my internship. Even then I had to rely on my auto correct. I hate reading. Period.


I don't have a personal opinion in political issues. I don't even know who Gadaffi was until he died and my mom was telling me "Eh Duffy died." And I'm like "What's a duffy?" Actually. I still don't know who he is. 


I like wasting my time on things which are not important. I bitch about people I care for and then regret when it's too late. I like talking without making any sense. I like exaggerating the situation. I make arguments without authorities and yet I'm taking a degree in law. See. Even me, as a person, just doesn't make sense.


That's who I am. But I am trying. Everyday. To be a better person. I'm not perfect but I'm determined to be. Just give me time and put a little faith in me. I'm determined to give you more reasons to love me. 


I'm sorry.

All these bad habits have to go.